Yea, I haven't posted on my blog for a while. I'm not gonna bother finding sorts of excuses or justify it, I simply just haven't had the motivation. Kind of arrogant to think I have better things to do, but so it is. My attention has been drawn to a fictional whom I have fallen in love with. Yea it sucks, and it's lasted for 2-3 weeks now. It is starting to fade away from my thoughtstream during a regular day, but it still interferes and holds my general interest when I start thinking a lot. Which I do when I get bored. Which I get late at night.
Friday, I was out drinking on the "wattworks" listening to music and generally having a fun time. We did plenty of moshpits, and I remember late that night I started singing and randomly quoting Pablo Francisco. People were crying with laughter. Hmm, feels good to be socially noticed sometimes, but honestly, I can only imagine how tideous it must be if that's what Your life consists of. I prefer keeping an independent state of mind the majority of the time.
Also, I have started creating my own cultural beliefs, and I have already noticed a difference in my personal satisfaction and my attitude towards people. Right and wrong have become clearer and I have become more aware of my personal flaws. It really is great to believe in something and still not have it be a higher power such as a God or an item or being capable of thinking on it's own.
I have derived the terms "Keelah" and "Keelah Se'Lai" from one of my favorite videogame franchises: Mass Effect for the sole purpose of giving voice to my beliefs and perspective. Keelah being a synonym for all and everything, and how we each must improve ourselves as people, to eventually improve the world as a whole. In fact, I have "compiled" a saying and stuck with it as my way of spreading the idea:
"I do not pray, for Keelah is not a God.
Keelah is all; all is Keelah.
Each individual must act and think on behalf of others to improve us a whole.
To improve us as Keelah.
It does not bring any reward beyond the personal satisfaction expected to occur in any man in possession of a righteous, pure heart and soul.
However, that does not make our movement an act of arrogance or ignorance. We unite under the banner of justice, peace and harmony to deliver an obligation to the people who came before us. Violence is a tool used by lesser people who have yet to master the flexibility of mind, soul and interest and so we do not condone to actions in a such nature.
Keelah Se'Lai - May Keelah Be With You." - Me, 1996 - N/A
I do not serve a God, I serve the world and the people around me.
Keelah Se'Lai
